Disaat hati berlawanan dengan logika

pernahkah anda merasa lelah,, pusing atau bahkan merasa dibosankan oleh pikiran anda sendiri?
jika iya.. berarti kita sama! hehe..
layaknya manusia pada umunya.. saya pun terkadang merasa bosan untuk berdebat dengan hati saya sendiri.. berusaha memanage apa yang hati inginkan dan apa kenyataan dan logika yang ada.
apakah itu susah?.. BANGET.. yah.. lumayan deh susahnya huftt..
lantas gimana ya jalan keluarnya?..
hati itu unik,, terkadang apa yang dibilang hati adalah sebuah feeling yang benar adanya. tapi suatu saat.. emosi dihati malah bisa menjadi sebuah musibah besar yang kamu lakukan demi memenuhi keinginan hati..

well well wel...
cuma ada 1 jalan...
apa itu??....
kita cuma butuh untuk sabar, memikirkan lebih dalam apa yang hati dan logika hadapi,,
biarkan otakmu bekerja.. biarkan hatimu bersuara...
setelah itu.. coba diskusikan kepada Allah..
Ia yang Maha Mendengar dan Ia yang Maha Melihat..
coba keluarkan air matamu saat kau curahkan semua isi hatimu..
yakinlah.. yakinlahh.. dan yakinlah bahwa apa yang kau hadapi di esok hari merupakan awal yang baru dan tentu baik untuk hari esok,, masa depanmu..

tidakkah kamu merasa nyaman saat kamu dekat dengan-Nya?
tidakkah kamu merasa sangat berdosa saat kamu tahu bahwa melanggar hukum-nya adalah berdosa sedang kamu sendiri mengetahuinya dengan jelas?
tidakkah kamu merasa lelah jika sifatmu yang negative tidak diberi sesuatu yang possitive?

ya.. cuma ia yang maha kuasa yang mengetahui apa dibalik semua itu..
kita berbicara seperti ini bukanlah bermaksud  untuk menyayangkan apa yang telah ia takdirkan kepada kita, melainkan kita hanya berfikir positif untuk selalu menghadapi sesuatu yang negative.

semoga kita selalu diberkahi oleh Allah swt, diberi kemudahan disetiap langkah postive kita.. dan qobul hajat.
aamiin..

YOU ARE THE OCEAN

That day... the fisrt time i saw her sitting alone at the edge of the beach.
"her name?!!!" Oh i forgot to ask what her name is!! she looks good but not much beautiful. she was alone and held a piece of paper and a pen of course.and i... and i thought that she just spent her time to get fresh.

the day after that day, i flew away to find some worms.. i was very very very hungry.. but again.. i saw the same girl sitting in the same place and was completed by her tools. i thought.. "huh?! whatever.. i need to eat" and continued to flew over.

"huuuuhhhh......... finally!! thanks for today's food God!!.. i'm sooooooo fuulll"
(getting my place to get some sleep)
"is it morning already?"

I SE HER EVERYDAY.. I'M HUNGRY.. I FIND MY FOOD AND I SLEEP AGAIN WHEN I WAKE AT THE MORNING.
THE SAME THINGS ARE ALWAYS HAPPEN FOR A YEARS.

BUT, someday i went out and walked on the sand at the edge of the beach..
i found a piece of paper. the word is not clear enough but i could read it

it's the paper:
"oh.. you,, the ocean.. you are beautiful, you are amazing, you are everything for me.. everyday i shout.. i yell you. i told you that i love you much!! even... even... even it is just in the silence.. in my heart"

i was just shocked..
why?.. why she did it?
but i didn't get the question till i find her.

next day.. on the 368 days exactly..
just as usual, i saw her. BUT!! today i will asked what her name is..

at 6.30 PM..
i went out from my place.
AMAZING!!!! "now, i see why she sits there everytime,, it's beautiful outside"
"where.. where.. where the girl is?. oh! there you are"
(getting cloe by her)

i am : hey cuttie.. what'ur name?
she : hi dear.. i'm stone.
i am : what?!!!! do not kidding me!
she : yeas..i'm stone!
i am : ok.. ok.. whatever your name is.. i want to say that, i saw you right here for more than a hundred days. i thought that u are crazy and dont have any job. but now i uderstand that it's beauty looking the wave of the cean right from here. i should't keep my self inside. it's too much beauty to be passed.
she : haha.. yeah! you're right!. it's beauty. but those kinds aren't to be the reason why i'm sitting here.
i am: what?! again fooling me?
she: no.. no.. i'm just the lover.. i love the ocean. i know sometimes the wave of the storm disturbing its' beauty cz it's too much dangerous while it's sad.
i am: what are you talking about? i don't understand! and i have found a piece of a paper.sad saying written on it.
she : ohhh.. my!! you found it? yea.. it was the 80th days.. i was tired waiting for the ocean's love. i'm not like the girl who tell the feelings bravely. so everytime i sit here.. i bring my diary and single pen,, then i write all of my feelings. it's all in silence.  you know why i sit here everyday?..
i am: no, of course not!
She : i am stone.. it's just freaking word which is same with me. my name is Gina, i cant do anything but watching my love.. the ocean. i'm not brave to say that "i love you.. i miss you.. i need you". that's why i sit here.. i never brave to say it. because everytime i want to say.. unclear the wind whispers me that "the ocean is too big for you to be reached.. too nice.. too dangerous.. too hard and much impossible to be yours".
i am : no.. maybe the wind lies..
she : no.. the wind is right. i can't do anything. all i love to do is watching the ocean right here.. without thouching its' part. you see?!!
i am : what?
she : see.. the ocean is happy with the beauty golden shine while sunny and the rainbow when rainy. so why i'm supposed to be its' special thing?!
i am: haha.. nooo you've done it for hundered days.. you should reach everything that u have waitted for long. i knew.. your love isn't know what you feel?
she: i've tried to whispers the wind.. i said "please... tell the ocean that i like you" and the sand of this beach is the witness.
i am: so.. try again!! you need to try again!
she : no.. i can see the situation of the discussion between the wind and the ocean. i can see that the ocean is busy with its business. busy with its' fishes which are accompanied it everytime. busy of kissing with the wave.. busy of everything and never let me in. sooooo levae me. just let me right here.. alone.. till i'm getting much bored and leave this place by the God's way
i am: so.. what should i say?
she : nothing.. and leave me alone,


i never understand what she thinks?..
of course it's impossible to her to be the ocean's special thing.
both are very different! haha she is getting crazy
i am so sleepy..
but before i get sleep..
i told my self " i do not know she going to be.. to have or anything.. i'm so sorry for the girl.. for Gina.. but life is in God's hands. sooooo (hooamzzz) so.... just let see what the next story.. dunno how i will find the next story"
ok i am sleepy..
Gnite Gina,, Gnite Ooo...ooo...oo...cean..

hoammmmmm *snoring already"

orat oret cinta

Cinta..
5 butir huruf yang mampu menghipnotis pendengarnya..
seketika muncul dalam benak...
setiap orang pasti memiliki kesimpulan dalam alur ceritanya yang mungkin berkelok bahkan complicated..
atau mungkin ada yang langsung tersenyum bagai mendapat hadiah terindah di dihidupnya.

cinta..
apakah cinta hanyalah sebuah kata-kata yang terselip di sebuah cerita dongeng?
tidakkah cinta itu benar adanya?
jika iya.. bisakah kamu memberiku sebuah bukti?
jika tidak.. mengapa banyak orang yang berfikir akan hal yang sama?

cinta...
tak sanggup ku melukiskan apa itu cinta
cinta itu abstrak bagiku
tak berbentuk
tak terlihat
tak berbau
atau memang tak ada?

cinta..
tak faham aku akan dirimu?
bagiku, cinta hanyalah kepada Allah dan keluarga

cinta..
tak faham aku akan dirimu?
bagiku, begitu sulit bagiku tuk memaknai akan dirimu "yang lain"

oh cintaa..
beri aku sebuah jawaban
hanya sebuah jawaban..
oh cinta..
mari kita saksikan apa yang mereka tahu akan tentang dirimu!
oh cinta..
mari kita saksikan siapa yang paling mengerti akan dirimu!

entahlah..
cinta kau memang abstrak bagiku..
telah lelah diriku mengartikan dirimu..
khawatir akan dirimu cinta...
apakah kau benar tersedia di permukaan bumi ini bagiku?... cinta?..

PACAR VS ORANG TUA

Assalammu'alaikum sahabatku yang ku cintai..

kembali lagi hari ini aku ingin mengutarakan perasaanku, unek-unekku atau sesuatu yang ada di hatiku di dalam blog ini.

awalnya aku memang merasa aneh, kenapa? sebab, dulu jika aku ingin mengutarakan sesuatu, aku biasa menulisnya di dalam diary ku dan ku tutup rapat diaryku agar tak satu orangpun dapat melihat atau membacanya, namun sekarang, aku malah justru menulisnya di dalam bblogku dan ku posting ke masyarakat umum hingga semua orang dapat melihatnya.. tapi gpp lah haha... yang penting hatiku legaaaaaa...

well... kali ini aku ingin membahas tentang PACAR VS ORANGTUA MU..

sebelum membahas lebih dalam, mari kita cari informasi pengertiannya masing-masing.

PACAR adalah teman lawan jenis yg tetap dan mempunyai hubungan berdasarkan cinta kasih; atau singkat saja TEMAN SPESIAL

sedangkan, ORANGTUA adalah adalah ayah dan/atau ibu dari seorang anak, baik melalui hubungan biologis maupun sosial.

nah kalau VERSUS  adalah lawan.

finally udah tau kan pengertian dari masing-masing kata tersebut.. sekarang langsung aja ke pembahasan. check it out!!

sobatku, kenapa aku ingin curhat tentang masalah ini, karena aku sudah merasa bosan melihat 'kejadian ini', dimanapun aku berada.

coba deh mari kita renungkan... sikap-sikap seorang anak kepada orang tua seharusnya:

1. Mentaati apa kata orang tua (yang positif)

2. Menghormatinya

3. Menyayanginya

4. Membantunya

5. Perduli kepadanya

6. Mendo'akan mereka

7. Menjaga perasaan mereka.

ketujuh point diatas itu contoh sikap yang seharusnya anak lakukan kepada orang tuanya.. meski memang sulit sekali tuk melaksanakan semua point diatas.

sekarang mari kita tengok ke kanan, kiri, depan, belakang, ngalur, ngidul dan samping kalian, mari kita lihat REALITAnya, bagi kalian yang punya temen/sahabat/kakak/adik/sepupu/keponakan atau siapalah itu orangnya.. mengapa saya meninta sobat tuk memperhatikan mereka?

SEBAB..... saya suka bingung dengan sebagian dari mereka yang sudah memiliki pasangan baik sah atau belum. Saat saya perhatikan, bulu kuduk saya jadi merinding!!.. sering kali saya lihat mereka yang memiliki pasangan justru malah melaksanakan ketujuh point diatas kepada pasangannya, bukan dengan orang tuanya!!..

temen-temen tau kan film "Kita Nikah Yuk" yang dibintangi oleh Naysila Mirdad, Ringgo Agus Rahman dan beberapa artist lainnya, kalau kamu udah pernah nonton tuh film, kamu pasti tau kan Ringgo bereran sebagai siapa?,, yups!!! Beliau berperan sebagai "mas wasit". nah.... liat deh di beberapa episodenya, ibu mas wasit menangis karena sakit hati terhadap anaknya si wasit yang lebih "betah" nemenin si Mawar (Naysila) dan ibunya mawar.. apapun yang dipinta mereka pasti diusahakan, meski itu dalam keadaan hurry. 

Kisah itu film nyata bgt lho temen-temen!!.. seringkali ku lihat sebagian mereka yang memiliki pasangan justru lebih peduli, tunduk, dan lebih menjaga perasaan pasangan mereka dari pada orang tua mereka sendiri!. Naudzubillah ya.. jangan sampai kita kaya gitu..

di deket rumah juga sering kulihat kejadian seperti itu, saat ku lihat wajah sang ibu, sungguh tersayat hati ini.. betapa tidak!!.. sang ibu sering melontarkan perasaannya kepadaku dan terkadang hampir mengeluarkan air matanya.. 

Ya Allah... Ya Rahman.. ngeri aku lihat kejadian ini!!..

jangan sampai kita lebih perhatian, perduli atau lebih sayang kepada pasangan kita dibanding ke orang tua kita sendiri ya kawan, khususnya yang belum sah!.. jika kalian sudah terlanjur berbuat seperti itu, ayo segera berubah!. kalian gak tau kan berapa kali ibu kalian menangis karena kamu?!... mesi kamu lihat sosok ibumu tegar dan seolah tak masalah dengan keadaanmu seperti itu, tapi sadarlah.. jauh dilubuk hati ibumu, beliau menjerit dan mnyesal.

coba renungkan, 

berapa kali kalian menolak permohonan ibumu, dan berapa sering kalian menolak permintaan pasanganmu?

berapa kali kalian membantu orang tua mu, dan berapa serign kalian membantu orang tua pasanganmu?

berapa kali kalian meluangkan waktu tuk orangtua mu hanya tuk sekedar canda tawa, dan berapa sering kamu menghabiskan waktumu bersama pasanganmu?

berapa kali kalian berkata "tar dulu/nanti/entar/" saat orangtua mu meminta bantuanmu dan berapa sering kalian berkata seperti itu disaat pasanganmu meminta pertolonganmu?

berapa kali kalian berkata "sini mah, pah saya buatkan teh soalnya kalian sangat capek habis mencari nafkah untuk aku dan keluarga ini" dan berapa sering kalian berkata "ayo.. aku beliin sesuatu nih buat kamu biar kamu seneng" ke pasanganmu?

berapa kali kalian bertanya "papah, mamah,.. mau kemana?.. kita jalan-jalan yuk biar gak jenuh dengan rutinitas" dan berapa sering kalian berkata "sayang... kamu mau kemana?,jalan-jalan yuk"?

kadang orangtua mu sangat-sangat membutuhkan bantuanmu, namun dengan santai kamu menolaknya, tapi gimana kejadiannya, jika yang minta tolong itu pasanganmu?, atau orang tua pasanganmu? yak silahkan dijawab sendiri :p

itu adalah contoh pertanyaan yang sering timbul di hatiku saat aku melihat kejadian yang tepat didepan mataku.

well.. ini bukan berarti aku nyeramahin atau sok pinter,  setiap kata yang aku tulis itu tulus jeritan hatiku.

semoga kita semua tehindar dari sifat buruk ini.. aamiin :)

I DON'T FORGET ABOUT US..

That night...

yet still i remember that night..

the night that can't i forget about,

still... still i remember the days before that night 

yet still i trying to finish the book

even though the stories were ended

you... you are the ghost who coming to me at the night

you.. you are the scariest one for me cz you have made me mad

you.. you are rough yet still you are the best

away.. you are going away

though i know you will say: "you do"

but... still you are the best memories

i don't foget about us

even you are trying to

i don't make any space between us

even you are pointing me to

i'm better when i'm good

i'm the worst when i'm not good

but, i hope you will always be better and better even best 

i'm praying for you... 

WISH YOU WERE HERE..

[Verse 1:]
I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you
It's not like that at all
There's a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walked through it

[Pre-Chorus:]
And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Verse 2:]
I love
The way you are
It's who I am
Don't have to try hard
We always say
Say it like it is
And the truth
Is that I really mi-I-iss

[Pre-Chorus:]
All those crazy things you said (things you said)
You left them running through my head (through my head)
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did (things we did)
Didn't think about it, just went with it (went with it)
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Bridge:]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go, oh, oh)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were here)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn (Damn)
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here (Here)
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I STILL MISS SOMEONE..

Outside my door...the rain is falling
A cold, wild wind will come
Well there's someone for me...somewhere
But I still miss that one

No, I never got over those blue eyes
I see them...everywhere...
And I miss...those arms that held me
Baby, when all the love was there

Well I wonder...if he's sorry
For ending what we had begun
Well there's someone...someone for me somewhere
Baby, well I still miss someone

And I never got over those blue eyes
I see them...everywhere...
And I miss...those arms that held me
Ooh baby, when all the love was there

And I never got over those blue eyes
I see them...everywhere...
And I miss...those arms that held me
Baby, when all the love was there
Baby, when all the love was there
Baby, when all the love was there...